Hello there beautiful people, I hope you’re all doing really well and have had a lovely festive season together with a great start to the new year.
For the first time in my life, I’m entering a new year with zero pressure to change. It feels so good to feel as though I’m strolling into a new season in life rather then sprinting or jumping in head first.
I do want to implement a few changes though; I want everything I do to be a little more intentional. The past year has been one of transition for me and for us as a family. We took on (way) too much and I finally feel as though we’re settling into our little lives a bit more comfortably now and that we’ve fine tuned our routines and purpose and are ready to tackle a new year with all that it brings. That being said, the transition itself was uncomfortable, full of trial and error and lots of self exploration and healing. For a long time I felt like I was being very reactive, both in life and online. Now however, I want to create a life that suites me and share purposeful content with you all.
Posting on stories daily had become a bit of a chore and I felt as though I had to do it and as a result I stopped enjoying it; I don’t want to do that anymore. I don’t want to post for the sake of posting. I would very much rather fill your feed and your screens with useful information and helpful ideas rather than random things that don’t really connect to my purpose online.
I started my pages as a place to share my journey into health and wellness in hopes that I would help others. Over the years, I lost a bit of that passion. It’s only now, that I was once again struggling with my own personal health and wellbeing that I was reminded how immensely important this is to me and how much more I want to share and help.
‘EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT UNTIL YOU GET SICK – IT’S ONLY THEN YOU REALISE THAT YOUR HEALTH IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD’
2021 and 2022 were pivotal years for me personally, not only did I become a mother, I planned a wedding and got married, moved house, tried to manage two businesses and as a result my mental health deteriorated immensely. This time last year, I decided that 2022 would be the year I devoted to getting my mental health back. THE YEAR OF HEALING. I desperately wanted, needed, to start feeling like myself again and strived to take care of myself no matter what. I underwent talk therapy, neurofeedback therapy, was diagnosed with post partum depression, high functioning anxiety and ADHD. With the help and support of my husband, family and treatment, after many months, I finally feel like me again. It’s been an immensely challenging year but this has also been the most rewarding work I have ever done.
The treatment I underwent and still undergo to this very day is not a cure all and end all, I still have to put in the work, I still get bad days and always will but I now have the tools and understandings to cope which I didn’t have before. I have come to accept, that just as I have to exercise and eat right to keep my body functioning optimally and feeling good, I must to the same for my mental health. And that’s ok. It’s ok for life to take it’s toll on you, it’s ok to not be ok and it’s necessary to take the time and measures you need to heal.
Make no mistake, one way or another, every human being on the face of the earth understands suffering. Some more than others, granted, but a commonality we all share is struggle and suffering. For a long time I told myself I was just tired and sleep deprived – which I definitely was – but deep down, I knew it was more than that. It took many months for me to reach out and get help. My one regret is not doing it sooner.
If there’s one thing I’ve learnt it’s that TRUE STRENGTH IS VULNERABILITY AND AUTHENTICITY.
I’m sharing this because I’ve been wanting to for a while and it somehow never felt right to do so. I also found other mothers sharing their struggles reaffirming and helpful; sometimes all you need is to know you’re not alone. So if you are in the thick of it right now, if simply getting out of bed is hard, if life feels like it’s too much, too hard, too tiring, I get it. I’ve been there. I know what it feels like when you think there’s no getting out of a bad situation. I understand the shame you feel, the sorrow, the regret, the anger, the pain. Just know that it is absolutely possible to get back to yourself. Please do reach out and get the help you need. There are so many people who want to help you, even if you don’t see it yet.
One other thing I’m doing differently is prioritizing; I will spend time and energy on what is most important to me. My mental health and wellbeing, my little family which I am so immensely grateful for and never want to take for granted, my work and my presence here with you all. For that reason, I may be sharing less. Less random stories and content that is not as helpful. But I will maintain my weekly posts here on the blog and also my recipe and food posts on my IG and FB accounts which many of you love.
I will end this post here but before I do, I just want you all to know how much I appreciate you. This little online community has given me strength, purpose and connection that I value deeply. Thank you for taking the time to be here, sending you all so much love ❤